Thesis

Don’t You Carry Nothing that Might be a Load by Marcelese Cooper

I was always a fan of musicals but I think there was something engineered by Quincy Jones and the mad scientists at Mowtown to be placed in between the frames of The Wiz because it sits in my peripheral like a ghost or a guardian angel and it took me 13 years to realize that it left such an impact on me in both an artistic sense but also as someone who tends to sing and talk to themselves moving from point A to point B. The lyrics to “Ease on Down the Road” seem to be tattooed on the insides of my eyelids, the words feeling like an incantation or a hymn better suited for bus stops than churches.

As I’ve been working on my thesis, this version (the more interesting and less brainwashy) of the story has unintentionally become a muse for me. I had my story and characters already formed well before I thought of The Wiz in any conscious way but clearly my subconscious had its own agenda. The way these characters push forward against the menacing winds in a warped 1970’s New York and the funky fresh flair baked into their antagonists is nothing short of jaw-dropping and inspiring for me at this stage in my creative process. I spoke at length about this approach to telling a story during a studio visit. Below are notes from other visits and calls I was lucky enough to be on regarding how it is we tell our stories and what it means to have a voice and the responsibility we have of taking care of it so it speaks for us..

I’m easing on down the road, at my own pace, and with tired eyes at times but the smile I keep is genuine these days. Being in this place, between beginning and end (both with my thesis and my academic career) where I must confront my materials and my influences has placed a certain degree of anxiety onto me but I know from experience that much of that tension is self-generated. Hearing others talk about their jobs as makers of things and as storytellers, in arenas I’ve yet to enter seems to melt some of that stress away (especially when those creative people look like me). I only wonder what I will think when I look back on those moments years later if they’ll provide a similar comfort

I worry about what it means to be an educator and if my idea of making art is truly something worth sharing but all of these visits and talks have only further encouraged me to be bold and be sure that my voice matters and the way I project it is worth something too. I’m excited by not knowing and seven years worth of higher education is enough formal investigation down the golden paved path of curiosity. I need concrete untouched by the soles of my beat-up boots and this work is my first step on that new path. I’m nervous but hopeful as I juggle projects I care about and take my efforts into new spaces.

Seeds for Ideas and Projections of Self by Marcelese Cooper

So here I am, an amalgamation of notes, sketches, feelings, and energy bound by time. I’m sure there’s blood, fast food, and oat milk mixed in but those components feel less relevant.

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It’s exciting to be further along on this series than I was several months ago, though as I scan in old notes and more current sketches and finds I’m caught bouncing back between reshooting some of my photographs out of a desire to experiment with digital rather than film and pushing forward shooting video in small chunks at a time.


I’ve had my narrative for NIGHTMARE PROPAGANDA for some time, my characters and their designs for even longer, and when I think of what's next I find myself focused on presentation and delivery. I’ve spent a lot of time drawing, experimenting with animation, making music, and writing poems in the spirit of the characters I’m sharing headspace with and the process has left me tired some days but mostly full of anticipation for what feels like a family reunion of sorts. I was told recently that embodying the figures in this series gives my nightmares power- still digesting that thought. Thinking it’s time to really put my mad scientist hat on and experiment with how the installation will function with photo and video at it’s center.

-Marcelese

The Road to Thesis by Marcelese Cooper

Currently in the midst of the video portion of my thesis project Nightmare Propaganda and as I move forward in preparation for constructing the installation that will house this multimedia project I look back on the texts I’ve read to challenge my thinking in this process and I wonder if I subconsciously knew in the beginning (well over a year ago now) just how comforting working with these nightmarish figures would be for me. It’s odd to feel such a fondness for people who only exist as we imagine or how we experience them, like a campfire story, an urban legend, or a regional cryptid. These figures whom I’ve come to call The Denizens are the focus of the series and I hope to redefine what we as a society consider the nature of a nightmare, we must reconcile with our fears and acknowledge that they serve a purpose.

I plan on documenting some of my thoughts and musings during the second leg of creating the work while I start drafting the written thesis itself. If anything, these posts will help me get some of my thoughts uncluttered while also being documentation of a time where I kept myself buried in books.

-Marcelese

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